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Lately I been feelin kinda empty and not enough spiritual energy. Said I'd be productive and not spend a bunch of time socializing online today, but I just don't feel motivated rn, so here I am again posting online.
Firstly I'm wondering why do chicks with dicks and femboys seem to have the biggest dicks? Having an average size penis makes me feel empty and unsatisfied inside. I need either a big penis or no penis at all, I'd rather have a vagina than going around with an average size penis. I don't know why people are wanting to be mediocre. Every time I masturbate, my aesthetic proportions feel off, like my average size penis doesn't feel proportional to my taller than average body. I guess if I had PiV or oral sex I wouldn't feel so inadequate, but with masturbation or anal I feel this is inadequate. How do chicks with dicks and femboys have such large dicks, do they take some secret chemical to enlarge their dick?
Then gender. Fuck it, I think I'm evolving past gender. The idea of being a man or being a woman feels cringe to me. Its like a long list of roles and societal expectations thrust upon you automatically, once you are perceived as a certain gender. I think we are just beings, lifeforms, once humanity reaches a certain point of evolution we will transcend beyond gender. Gender feels like one giant larp. For instance, when I was around other boys, they had unrealistic/impossible male role models that they autistically tried to larp as.
Then overall, I feel sad about my ex. A wife-beater got her pregnant and I haven't seen her since. She seemed really unhappy with him. Seems like a dystopian society. I broke up with her long before that. Felt like a beta-bux around her, she rarely gave me any love. I guess I wasn't worthy enough for her. Looking back, there were some things I could have improved about myself, but overall, she seemed way too alpha and not in an appealing way, the whole relationship seemed like a beta-bux while she cheated on me. I still would like a dominant female gf, but one who gives me the love I need and doesn't cheat on me. Overall though I felt like being a woman gave her too much power over me, I had to always do what she says because she was born xx. And it overall wasn't fun and wasn't healthy.
I don't expect everyone to agree with me and frankly I don't care. Sorry though for dumping my emotions on you.
Firstly I'm wondering why do chicks with dicks and femboys seem to have the biggest dicks? Having an average size penis makes me feel empty and unsatisfied inside. I need either a big penis or no penis at all, I'd rather have a vagina than going around with an average size penis. I don't know why people are wanting to be mediocre. Every time I masturbate, my aesthetic proportions feel off, like my average size penis doesn't feel proportional to my taller than average body. I guess if I had PiV or oral sex I wouldn't feel so inadequate, but with masturbation or anal I feel this is inadequate. How do chicks with dicks and femboys have such large dicks, do they take some secret chemical to enlarge their dick?
Then gender. Fuck it, I think I'm evolving past gender. The idea of being a man or being a woman feels cringe to me. Its like a long list of roles and societal expectations thrust upon you automatically, once you are perceived as a certain gender. I think we are just beings, lifeforms, once humanity reaches a certain point of evolution we will transcend beyond gender. Gender feels like one giant larp. For instance, when I was around other boys, they had unrealistic/impossible male role models that they autistically tried to larp as.
Then overall, I feel sad about my ex. A wife-beater got her pregnant and I haven't seen her since. She seemed really unhappy with him. Seems like a dystopian society. I broke up with her long before that. Felt like a beta-bux around her, she rarely gave me any love. I guess I wasn't worthy enough for her. Looking back, there were some things I could have improved about myself, but overall, she seemed way too alpha and not in an appealing way, the whole relationship seemed like a beta-bux while she cheated on me. I still would like a dominant female gf, but one who gives me the love I need and doesn't cheat on me. Overall though I felt like being a woman gave her too much power over me, I had to always do what she says because she was born xx. And it overall wasn't fun and wasn't healthy.
I don't expect everyone to agree with me and frankly I don't care. Sorry though for dumping my emotions on you.